I am in a bad mood today, not sure why. I blame the rain. Crappy weather.
Also had a think about this whole Nat and Kyle thing and I am actually happy they are happy together but I cannot get over the fact that it is weird that I saw Kyle and I used to babysit Natalie when she was like 9! I am that much older, which means he is that much older and it is just wrong! I am sad that I am not as close to Jonny and Natalie as I used to be when I was younger. I am also sad that it is weird with Natalie and me because I have been with Kyle. I can’t even joke about it or share funny stories because you don’t do that with a cousins boyfriend! Ah well. Never mind.
I find it so hard to write short stories though and longer ones take me ages and I get bored. I really should have this as my hobby and maybe start posting them somewhere… hmmm
Guy: Wanna hang out tonight?
Girl: I can’t, it’s Wednesday
Guy: yeah we can! It’s practical Friday!
Girl: Ohh… um I had plans.
I used to follow ‘You park like a cunt’ but it makes me too angry!
Do not worry this is not another rant about how I hate life but rather a look back on things. I have been reading some old blogs and my moods changed quite a lot from hating life to being able to deal with it knowing that life is shit and I can’t do anything about it.
I am in a much better place now. I don’t find I hate life at all just get bored with it quite often.
Anyway, basically 2009 was a bad year for me. I lost my nan and I was constantly down. It was also the year I became a hoe.
2010 was the year I did something really bad. So bad that I won’t post what it was but a few people know. I basically have ruined my future in a way.
2011 all my financial problems caught up with me.
So far 2012 has been good. By the end of 2011 I had sorted my money problems and I love living where I do so that all got better.
Things that haven’t got better are the fact that I am still unwanted. I don’t get what is so wrong with me that I can’t hold down a guy or even have one wanting more from me than a shag. Why do people not care to get to know me?
So, I am thinking I need to get a hobby. I need to do something with my evenings rather than coming home and being boring. I also need to find something that I can do weekends as they are the times I get lazy and bored.
Anyway my hands hurt from typing now so shall go. Maybe speak soon
Maybe I have a problem?
Have to admit I don’t actually have a lot to say and I only have 15 minutes left of my lunch.
Recently found that Conor Maynard can actually sing and his new song is my guilty pleasure.
It is my birthday soon. I am really looking forward to it but it is taking ages to come along.
I am a bit addicted to going out now. I have such a good time with my girls that I want to go out all the time but of course not everyone can go out every weekend and not feel it, even me. I really should start staying in a bit more and saving the money for my birthday and stop drinking again. I just get so bored staying in all the time, but I have been out every weekend for the last month I think so maybe it is about time I stayed in for a bit.
I need to read back on my last post and see what I said. I do like to look at the history of stuff and see how much has changed with myself and my life, so goodbye for now
In The End - Linkin Park (Piano Cover) (by Benjamin010208)
I love this so much
RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 20 friends, including me
5. Everyone tagged do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!
IF SOMEONE SAYS ‘ARE YOU OKAY’ YOU SAY?
It’s Like That
HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Easy
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Stars
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Monstar
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Just Like Jesse James
WHAT’S YOUR MOTTO?
Angel of Mine
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Gramophone
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
For once in my life
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Candy
WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Whatsername
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
I miss you
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
I want to break free
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Have a nice day
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Lullaby
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Gone to California
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Mr Writer
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
American Superstar
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Control Myself
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Skin
WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
You found me
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Sexy single
WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Imaginary
Todays answers (if different) will be in bold beneath the originals
Is anyone ignoring you right now?
Nope… as far as I am aware….
More than likely
Have you ever kissed someone named Paul or Luke?
Um… no
yes
Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with?
That would be mean it was Marge
No, would have been Lee
Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
That was Mesh… yes hahaha joking!
Nah, think that was Tom or Mike
Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
Don’t… ah yes I have, I fell asleep in a toilet at a pub, does that count?
Do you like to cuddle?
I LOVE to cuddle
What if you had a baby with the last person you texted?
Well that would be a bit hard seeing as its a she
That would be wrong, he is married!!
Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
Yes
What’s more attractive: when someone kisses you out of nowhere, or when you know its coming?
Depends who it is kissing you.
Have you ever taken a picture of yourself kissing someone?
Haha no
yes, paula or emma… pretty sure I have
At your best friend’s house, do you know your way around the kitchen?
Kind of… mostly
Do you find smoking unattractive?
Doesn’t make that much of a difference.
Although I prefer them not to smoke
Do you currently have feelings for anyone?
Maybe
No
Do you think you’ve changed over the past year?
Yes
Do you know anyone who drinks a lot?
Everyone drinks alot some times
Have you ever liked someone older than you?
Yes
When was the last time you talked to your grandmother?
Two years ago before she passed away :(
Longer now ;(
Last time you were on the phone? With who?
Marge… she asked if I could work as she is poorly :(
Um… my mum I think…
Did you have a good day yesterday?
It was long, I did 9-8 at work!
Yes because it was sunny
Do you hate the last person you kissed?
Haha it was such a long time ago… well seems it and no I don’t hate them.
No, why would I kiss them if I hated them
Do you plan on getting drunk in the near future?
Yes I do… tomorrow… slightly.
Not really no… maybe Tom’s birthday will be the next time… or girly night in
Do you drive?
I have a yellow beetle… yes it is cool!
I still drive just got a Saxo now
What was the last thing you drank?
Root beer thanks to Mesh!!!
Coke
Is there anybody who truly disgusts you?
No one disgusts me… just annoys me
When was the last time you threw up?
From drink about a month ago
A while a ago from drink, no surprises there
How do you feel about your hair?
It has red in and I love it!
It’s okay. The curls are gone but are half back so it has a weird curly straight thing going on!
Would you consider your parents to be strict?
Not rele just wise and caring :).
Will you be sleeping alone tonight?
Of course what sort of single girl do you think I am???
Do you sleep with the door open or closed?
Closed, open freaks me out :/
When angry, do you get loud or quiet?
I normally keep it to myself so quiet… unless provoked
Next time you will kiss someone?
As if you can predict these things!
Hopefully sooner than I think
Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about your feelings?
Paula and Emma, also Marge and the two davids sometimes
Paula, Emma somtimes Lee
What do you currently hear right now?
Purple Rain - Prince
No idea what it is. Some 80’s funk
This time last year can you remember who you liked?
I am sure I liked someone not sure who though
More than… yes Tom, my housemate
What are you looking forward to right now?
Tomorrow.
My party
How old do you look?
Thats a matter of opinion but I reckon I look younger than my age.
What were you doing at midnight last night?
Sleeping
Would you change for a person you care about?
No and yes… I feel that if you really like someone you change automatically to fit them but it isn’t some great big change to who you are as I feel no one should change who they are for someone, if they don’t like you as you are they are not worth it
Do you remember the name of your first school you ever went to?
Of course, Wolsey
Were you single on your last birthday?
I was
And the way things are going I will be again :(
Who do you currently like at this moment?
Wouldn’t you like to know?
No one
Level 1
() Smoked A Cigarette
() Smoked A Cigar
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
SO FAR: 1
Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
(x) dumped someone
(x) Shoplifted
() Been Fired
() Been In A Fist Fight
SO FAR: 4
Level 3
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped Class
(x) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die
SO FAR: 8
Level 4
(x) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends
(x) Been To Paris
() Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
(x) Thrown Up From Drinking
SO FAR: 12
Level 5
(x) Eaten Sushi
() Been Snowboarding
() Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook
(x) Been in a Mosh Pit
SO FAR: 14
Level 6
() Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel (only done that this year)
SO FAR: 18
Level 7
(x) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
(x) Gone mudding (offroading)
(x) Played Dress Up
SO FAR: 23
Level 8
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Slegding
SO FAR : 25
Level 9
() Watched The Sun Set
(x) Felt An Earthquake
() Killed A Snake
SO FAR: 26
Level 10
(x) Been Tickled
(x) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(x) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood
SO FAR: 30
Level 11
(x) Won A Contest
() Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
(x) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident
SO FAR: 33
Level 12
(x) Had / Have Braces
(x) Eaten a whole pot of ice cream in one night
(x) Danced in the moonlight
SO FAR : 36
Level 13
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
(x) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School
SO FAR: 44
Level 14
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
() Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean
() Felt Like You Were Dying
SO FAR: 47
Level 15
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
() Paid For A Meal With Only Coins
SO FAR: 51
Level 16
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn’t
(x) Made Prank Phone Calls
(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
() Kissed In The Rain
SO FAR: 54
Level 17
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
() Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
(x) Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere
SO FAR: 57
Level 18
() Crashed A Party
() Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
() Been Humped By A Monkey
SO FAR: 59
Level 19
(x) Worn Pearls
() Jumped Off A Bridge
(x)Screamed “Penis” or “Vagina”
() Swam With Dolphins..
SO FAR: 61
Level 20
(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
() Kicked A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex’s Clothes
(x) Sat On A Roof Top
SO FAR: 64
Level 21
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
(x) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed Up for a while talking to someone you care about
SO FAR: 68
Level 22
(x) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
() Climbed A Tree
(x) Had/Been In A Tree House
() Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone
SO FAR: 70
Level 23
(x) Believed In Ghosts
(x) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
() Gone Streaking
() Visited Jail
SO FAR: 72
Level 24
(x) Played Chicken
()Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x)Been Told You’re Hot By A Complete Stranger
(x) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused (always)
SO FAR: 76
Level 25
() Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
(x) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one (got asked)
(x) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed
SO FAR: 80
Level 26
(x) Mooned/Flashed Someone
(x) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(x)Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone’s Name
() French Braided Someones Hair…well attempted it..
() Gone Skinny Dipping
() Been Kicked Out Of Your House
()Tried to hurt yourself
SO FAR: 84
Level 27
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
(x) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
() Had A Cavity
() Black-Mailed Someone
() Been Black Mailed
SO FAR: 86
Level 28
(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs
() Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone
SO FAR : 90
Level 29
() Had sex in the rain.
() Flattened someones tyres
(x) Rode in a car/truck until the gas light came on
(x)Got five dollars or less worth of gas
TOTAL: 92
Repost this with the title:
I’ve done 92 out of the 122 stupidest things and tag 10 more people
RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 20 friends, including me
5. Everyone tagged do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!
IF SOMEONE SAYS ‘ARE YOU OKAY’ YOU SAY?
Senorita
HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Reet Petite
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Hot in the City
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Sacrifice
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Invitation
WHAT’S YOUR MOTTO?
Hold On
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Just a Step from Heaven
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Deep
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Human Nature
WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Hit me baby one more time
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Last thing on my mind
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Happy People
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Everyday is a winding road
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
If I were a boy
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Ordinary World
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Is there something I should know
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Pass you by
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Youre the best thing
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Hey mr dj (keep playing this song)
WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
The perfect fan
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
I thank you
WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Undiscovered